it gonna be tough for me

Assalamualaikum heheh , tak jadi laa entry semalam tu jadi post terakhir cause here i ammmmmm . still typing dengan perasan bercampur baur . sepatutnya i'm happy sebab dpt SBP eventough my sbp tuu antara the lowest among the sbps at malaysia . tapi i should be proud . at least i am the first one among my siblings and my extended family on mum's and late dad's side that get an offer to sbp . alhamdullilah Allah . there's no word could describe how do i feel right now . all in one . sedih ada , gembira ada , takut ada , excited pun ada .

just now i had a chit chat with my classmates that got an offer too , sound interesting much . we talked about how surrounding of SBP looks like , what we gonna face there . yaa a lot actually . masa tu rasa wow bestnyaaa , but then habis borak duduk kat tempat masing2 , pandang semua classmates 4musytari rasa mcm sebak . i'm gonna leave them . tak sempat lagi nak kenal2 hati budi masing2 , nama pun ada yg still tak tahu lagi (ya bad me, dush myself) tup tup dah nak kena keluar . dulu masa form1 beria2 taknak masuk sch taman selayang sbb takde kawan , nahh skrg dpt offer sbp sayang nak tinggalkan sekolah taman . especially my classmates . tadi sebelum balik semua plan nak raikan. eh tak , bukan raikan sbb semua sedih kitorang akan keluar  . so the correct word should be what eh? hmmm still thinking . Ahhhh ! whatever  :p diorg plan nak kumpul semuaaaaa classmates 3arif'12 and merelakan kepemergian kami . semalam text kawan2 , my ex , my auntie and ramai lah to share the happiness but most of them said they were sad . i'm also sad , tapi demi masa depan aku jugak :) dah plan2 last2 takde tempat nak buat , then nama AH pop out from my mind . hahaha sesuai sgt aaa sbb rumah orang kaya kan besar , cukup aa tuu nak gather diorang yg sayang kat kitorang and wanna spend the last moment with us . tapi AH kata tak tahu lagi sbb wan ada kat rumah and nanti dia bincang . kalau boleh nakkk sgt buat kat rumah AH, nak jumpa wan sbb since masuk sbp nanti mesti takde chance nak kenal2 wan apa semua . haha , ni perancangan masa depan aku dgn AH , eh jauhnya fikir? haha mesti laa , sbb haram couple kalau takde niat nak kawen. and AH sendiri kata he wanna marry me *blushing* hahahaha gatalnya diaaaaaa :p ok back to the story . so maybe buat kat rumah sesiapa kat bbs 2b tuu . tak kisah laaa, i wanna be with them for the last time T_T ramai jugak yang ajak jumpa before pergi . haha pemesh i yuolssssss :D tapi apa2 pun insyaAllah kalau ada kesempatan sbb nak masuk asrama ni banyak nak pakai duit beli itu beli ini . banyak tauuuu, mau dlm 2ribu jugak ah rasanyaaa . tadi akak saye text dia kata sedih sgt tk dpt hantar sbb on 29 jan tu dia dah mula final exam . wuuuu cedihnyewwwww , takde siapa hantar g sana sbb adik pun sch masa tu . siap marah2 kata "aku nak nangis lah sial " haha , apa lah kakak ni . menggedik je , aku relax je tak nangis :p tapi nanti a few days sblum pegi mesti beria2 nangis . mesti punyaaaa sbb saye cepat tersentuh :'( AH lak buat drama sedih , hari2 nak bbm cakap ayat sedih2 . eeeeee jangan lahhhhh , nanti titeww menangis dooo .

tapi kena fikir on positive side , advantage sgt masuk SBP ni. satu sbb semuaaaaaa kerajaan tanggung . bayar utk makan tu pun dah discount . second peluang masuk U sangat cerah sbb semua U akan provide space utk org dari sbp dulu baru sch harian , means takpayah fikir2 nak masuk mana sbb U yg akan cari kite bukan kite yg cari diorang . peluang sgt cerah :') grab laaaa awak2 sekalian . 3rd . for information, sch asrama penuh guna sistem pointer . same goes to universiti so mcm dpt laaa rasa apa yg akan berlaku masa exam kat u and takde lah culture shock sgt . kalau pointer more than 3.5 for 2 sesi persekolahan and trial spm dpt 3.5 ke atas diorang akan panggil u dari abroad utk ambil kite for A level and mcm2 lah before dpt result spm and semua JPA tanggung kos belajar kat sana . sekali belajar around 60k . siapa nak bagi kan? so to those yg dpat tawaran , jgn lah tolak , benda ni sangat baik utk masa depan . kite hilang sesuatu utk sesuatu yg lebih baik . tak rugi , cuma yelah siapa tahan kena jauh dari family kan :) doakan ibubapa kite yg terbaik , banggakan diorang , jangan sbb result tak memuaskan kena buang sch and masuk sch biasa . kecewa parent nanti :(


from AH sayang saye :)
              "for the first time, i've found someone that i hate to leaving . I've found someone that i can't get enough of . I've  found someone that accepts me for who i am & doesn't tell me i need to change, i think i've found someone who i can fall madly in love with"

:'( thanks AH, kite sayang awak sgt2 . jaga hati awak utk saye ok .takmo nakal2 , nanti weekend kalau awak tak training kat velodrome cheras i'll call you . belajar rajin2 , make your parebt proud , jangan tidur dlm kelas daa , i taknak dgar cikgu2 and kawan2 kata " pian , bangun pian" haha . there's no more goodnight and goodmorning wish from you and me anymore , nanti malam2 saye tidur lambat sbb prep habis lambat , awak jangan duduk rooftop lelama tauu time malam2 . nanti kena culik dgn han............ padan muka :p nanti jangan nangis sbb rindu saye sambil pandang bulan yg cantikkkk sgt mcm saye . awak janji kan nak tunggu saye? 2 tahun tak lama as you've said . nanti balik kl belanja i oreo cheese cake tauu . bawak bike elok2 after this . lepasni kalau you excident lagi , i takde daa nak tanya "you ok ke? dah balut luka? sakit sangat ke? nak pegi klinik tak? kalau teruk sgt promise dgn i pegi hospital ok" nanti kalau ada rezeki kite pergi pantai ok masa cuti bulan 3 . i takde masa birthday you so happy becoming birthday pakweku yg gedik :p hope kite kekal till our last breath . insyaAllah aminn :)